Am I happy with my life? i think no, I need to work harder but i don't, I need to be diligent, but I'm not, I must put a bright smile on my face, but it feel like putting a poker face.
Why i don't have any courage to make it better, and pursue my own happiness? I can't explain it.
This morning I get up earlier, not like the others day, I saw my cat face, his tail shaking, his cute voices and other features of his body that make me smile and feel happy. Yes, i get up to open the door so they can go out to fullfill their curiousity. But it doesn't mean i will start to prepare for my office day, i go back to sleep and forget all the pain that i need to face this morning. Like i said it hard to explain, i just don't love my job like the others. To put my focus on all the assignment, it need a lot off my energy.
But i can't quit and resign, I can't take all the risks, i feel so afraid and lose my own desire for this job. i just dont know what to do...........................
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