One year ago...

i found my self in this kind of situation, i won't say it horrible it just full of terrible things. i just need to deal with the situation, to move on, and move in to another situation. i just need to know what i want in the future, after another big disaster in my life, after the miserable chapter in my book, i don't know whether my cloud has a silver lining, or can i find a rainbow after the hard rain.
i sat on the floor to analysis the situation, trying so hard to read and to translate the code of life, have you ever question yourself about what is the life mean? do we just live and fulfill our need? actually i don't know what i really want to do, or what i really want to have, i just step in without knowing where i go. I saw everything that i really adore becoming dust, my dream, my picture of happiness, my portrait of happy family. I tried so hard to let it go, to continue the story, to accept my situation.