Realizing you

When i laugh, cry, smile, scream, sad, happy, and so on, i feel so bad cause i know you don't care about that. But now i realize my father care about my sadness, and i love the way my cats look at me when they notice my pain. Those little things my brothers do to put smile on my face. I realize now, that i was surrounded with bless.
Yes its true, deep inside my heart i miss you so badly, thinking of you in every night, stalking your IG Just to keep in touch with you in a very tiny absurd things. Hei but live goes on, and i need to go forward and make moves. I need to live my life, to fill it with happiness. Thats why i wont try to erase your name, i just try to be happy with all the best and worse things that been given. Yes i cares about you, but no, i wont let my self fall for you.